Amor

Amor é realmente o que eu sinto
dentro deste pequeno coraçao
estao sentimentos profundos por quem nunca senti
algo que me parecia impossivel sentir
mas que na verdade nao pude resitir

Sei que nao me devo preocupar
com pequenas dificuldades que atravesso
mas os meus olhos nao veem claro
sao negros e tudo escurece

Sei que nao deveria ser assim
estes pensamentos todos rivalizando dentro de mim
corroendo-me a carne umas vezes
ou brilhando a minha mente por outras

Ja á anos que tenho a mesma dificuldade
apenas tenho esperança que a minha vida tenha um novo rumo
que o passado sejam apenas memorias
que gradualmente devo esquecer
olhar em frente , nao pensar demais
viver apenas com a minha alma livre

É o que desejo , mais sinceramente do que alguma vez foi !!

Quando a propria mente degenera !!!

tudo começa do mesmo modo
começo a acreditar
mas logo e retirado de mim
pensamentos esquecidos
ninguem se lembra
existencia superficial
os dias sao negros
a minha vida e dificil de encontar

Perdido num mar de ilusao
sem nada a dizer
nao ha paixao
virar as costas ao amor
sem chegar a nenhuma conclusao

cair dentro de um poço negro
cheio de mentiras
a nada eu chego
a nada pareço encontrar
a minha cabeça começa a desconcertar
relogio avariado
nao ha hora para amar

guitarras distorcendo a minha veia
o sangue estaca
nao corre
negro ele é
fodendo tudo e todos
é a minha concusao , ai tinha de chegar

valentine's day

every time is the same
someone like me dont have blame
just hurts his body against these black rosed walls
as his head slowly bleeds and falls
everybody fall
but not like me
against the hurt of beeing alone
one more fucking valentine's day

if these is a reality , i guess i dont want to live in
cuz there's no love for those like me
everybody's free
but just not me

fuck valentine's day
fuck valentine's day
its just what i say

roses , flowers , love , happyness
hurt , pain ,hate , sadness

hear the sound of the wave of life
in my hand , a knife
to cut my heart open
and let my soul get out
is just another day alone
on fucking valentine's day

fuck valentine's day
fuck valentine's day
its just what i say

maybe is too soon to just say these words , but if all your life was like this what are you expecting for ?? good news ?? No , its always the same , time is bored , no time to complain for those who live on the edge of life and it dont seems to disappear , its a desease , of my mind and those who just think like me !!!

I wonder....

You touch my skin , i wonder
if you really enjoy
with my thoughts
i think im your toy
my silence , your words
my mind
shutdown

im cold , im angry
i hate , my suicide
my life , is painless
my future , is my darkness

your hands on my back
your pain , on my mind
i wonder ... i wonder

all your lies filled my mouth
i cant say what i want
i dont dream
i waste it all away
even if you come back
even if you love me again
i wonder...
if it would be the same!!

My dark in my eyes

im disfunctional , some part of me is missing
without it im insecure
i dont see straight
my dark in my eyes
it happens every time
i see myself in the mirror
without you

i know i hurt myself
i know i bore you
i know you say to i keep myself away
but my emptyness dont have another solution

you saying these words , you put my soul in the ground
but i cant help myself stop thinking
thinking in another version of my life
a life that i had before
before beeing dead inside

i found my home inside your heart
but i lost the key
i cant open the door
no matter what i do , is never what you want
i dont know what you pretend

its like you have a knife
stabbed in my heart
killing my love
leaving me
above the edge
to fall apart again , to fall apart again


depressed by your way to love me
i know you do
sad is you not show it to me
mad is me when i see i have to keep away
keep away from my soul
keep away from my mind
keep away from myheart
its you !!!

note : dedicated to a good friend !! change your view !!

Server !!

everything i called untrue
seems to be so real
now that im weak
everything can be admited

now that my reality is down
my heart so quiet
these scars of my past
dont let me think straight

tear me apart
bring me down
im a server
to link sadness
feel like i never felt
so bad
so sad´
i wish i could find the reason why
why all seems dead around
i never felt nothing more

im not like i used to be
some thoughts dont disappear easily
but i still thinking how i let it scape
from my pain i builded my life

rip my soul away from my head
my conscience dont let me be someone else
my hair writtes black on blue sky
im not bad , i just turn things good yet !!

here i begin to end this stupid vision
of beeing some crazy corpse
buried down the sea
i found in my habit the air to breath
and there is you
looking at me
my eyes turned white
i can finally live
or is just a ilusion of my mind ???

Confident !!!

i confess...

I like to serve you
i love you to serve me
i give you my love
i give you my hate
my happyness
my sadness
i am always trying to get close to you
and i always run away from you
i get impressed with you
i feel depressed by you
i open my eyes to see you
then i close them again
i smile because of you
i cry for you

i love to be your slave
i love to be your master
you fill me with your emptyness
you absorve my past
i eat yor future
and we burn the present on our hands

now tomorrow is today
yeasterday was never

hApPY nEw YeAr !!

happy new year !!

happy new year , without lies
happy new year , without false words
hope our heart dont dies
when the evil cut it with its swords
when our head look down...

our eyes empty
hope it could be different this time
stop walking on the wire
fill our eyes with life
new and fresh...

forget the past and its scars
its locked in the red stars
red of our blood , our heart
here is a new beggining
a new start
a new feeling
close your eyes
and wake up again ....

The way i taste it !!

if i could find a way
to rest lonely and calm
face with big eyes this days
and no longer waste my time

with single parts of my life
i build a shield
to protect me against
all enemies that want to hunt my soul
and sell it in the death market

this is the way i taste it
things you never wanted to face
but i see your blood
it leave me traces
of your fingers
in my heart
trying to take control of my body
and soul
but until my mind survive
no one can take my soul away from me
cuz this is the way i taste it

but if i fall on your ways
i can find my way back
to protect my love
and leave you with your hate
stills a fate
the fate of me running from you

Cuz all the faces i've seen
turned to void
something left me as i look inside
of pain that i always tryed to hide
all the times i screamed
i died a little more
but now i have to save myself
from all the sickness you inject me
my veins are tired
imploding death
now is time to stop killing me
cuz this the way i taste it
the way
the way i taste
the way i taste it

I AM NOT DEAD
I AM NOT DEAD
IS THIS WHAT I SEE

FeEd Me !!!